There is something more than a little heartbreaking about a young girl’s crush on a teen heartthrob (that cannot be the way it’s spelled). My daughter is currently in the throes of just such a thing. In this age of twitter and Facebook, she can feed the fire in her heart with instant updates. I had more than my family-sized share of mooning around when I was growing up. But those pop stars were as distant and unattainable as real ones. At the risk of dating myself–oh, hell we all know how old I am–here they are in so particular order:
Bobby Sherman, David Cassidy, Robert Redford, Burt Reynolds (oh, stop laughing), Ryan O’Neal, Bruce Willis (I was not technically a teen when I fell for Bruce), Bill Block.
OK, Bill Block is not a pop star. He went to college with me, but he was dreamy. I’d post a picture but I haven’t seen him in 30 years or so.
That said, I did marry my college sweetheart, see.
Wait, that’s not us.
This is us. Don’t zoom in, I think one eye is crossed. Maybe that’s why I veered off the red carpet.
As for Burt Reynolds, I think it was Deliverance that did me in. All that brawn in a life jacket, paddling a canoe of all things. That kid with the banjo; I think he’s my cousin.
When I went to camp (under duress) in North Carolina (and this might be where I met that cousin) I made cuff links out of pennies in crafts. I promptly wrapped them up in a distinctly stalker-ish fan letter–written on round paper, covered with x’s and o’s and a melted Milk Dud–and sent them to Bobby Sherman in care of TigerBeat magazine.
Years later, and I mean YEARS later, I met David Cassidy when he came to my office to discuss publicity for his upcoming book. I lied, charmingly, and said I sent the cuff links to him. He lied, charmingly, and said “Those were from you?” I will admit, here and now, because, really no one’s reading this, I tittered and giggled and flapped about like a startled quail.
But, this isn’t about me (me, me, me!). It’s about my daughter. I groaned the other day when she came to me, bottom lip quivering, and said “Mom, can you introduce me to X?” Let’s call him JB. I said “Are you joking?” Actually I said, “Oh, darling.” As soon as she left the room I shuddered in recognition. There was a time when I couldn’t understand why Bobby Sherman didn’t write me back, why he didn’t thank me for the cuff links. These days, I suppose, some flunky would send me a form-tweet. I cried when Ryan O’Neal walked through the snow dragging Ali MacGraw to her death. When I saw Love Story and watched Ryan (I call him Ryan) skating, hands in his pockets, around Wolman Rink I sighed and bit my lip. Nineteen years later, David took me to a pond that had frozen so quickly I could see the sandy bottom through the clear ice. He strapped on his hockey skates and took off with such grace I was left breathless. His hands were in his pockets.
I guess what I’m really trying to convey (you probably need a map by now) is that I can conjure up that feeling my Emma has; the desperate flutter as your heart threatens to leap out of your chest, the tears that just won’t stay unshed when you see your beloved’s face on YouTube or hear his relentlessly banal #1 hit on the radio, again. I feel it right now (don’t gag, I’m not going to say it’s because I’m thinking of David. How lame do you think I am?) just typing the name Robert Redford. It’s kind of why I find reading and writing young adult fiction so appealing. It’s all about possibility. Emma doesn’t think it’s odd to ask me to introduce her to JB. It’s not an impossibility to her. She thinks I can make it happen, she has faith in her Mom. And, man that is a mighty compliment and, I hope, shows that she doesn’t brand me a complete idiot. I don’t think it’s odd or impossible to believe that I will publish a novel. I have faith. If that isn’t the definition of what a teenage girl should feel about her life, well then I guess I am a complete idiot.
Now, if anyone has JB’s private phone number?